But today, I was reminded of faith. My faith. 

Faith is believing without seeing. Faith is not tangible. It's trusting and believing that things will be okay. I also believe if you give, and give with a full and faithful heart, you will be rewarded in tenfold. And if you work as hard as you possibly can by doing your part (saving money, eating right, exercising, studying, working hard) then faith is there to guide you through. I've lived it time and again in my very short life.

I never thought I would have been able to live in New York City. But I saved what I could, packed up, and took a leap of faith. And guess what- everything worked out. Nearly seamlessly. It wasn't easy, to say the least, but things worked out.

Today I'm just feeling overwhelmed. I picked my classes for spring, saw my school bill, and also saw a daunting number on the scale that I hadn't seen in YEARS when I jumped on it yesterday. When I look at my short-term goals (study abroad, buy a bike, buy a juicer) and my long-term ones (get an MA in Holistic Nutrition, live in Europe for a period of time) it keeps me check. It also gets me a tad distressed. I'm a hard worker, that I know. But I really just need more faith. Faith that I will get back to my preferred and healthy weight, that I will afford to travel abroad, that I will have the strength and perseverance to get an MA.

My mother has always said life is a series of up and down episodes. Nothing is ever really constant. it takes faith to believe that everything is going to be okay. it just will.