encompassed with all that needs to be done

constantly reminding myself that truthfully, none of it really matters.

so let go

because this moment is all i will ever have.

i don't want to waste it obsessing over my interest rates and mileage on my car.

i don't want to waste in the heat of the argument over why the puppy has fleas

i don't want to waste it thinking about thinking about thinking.

i'm learning that even the spiritual side of me (the daily meditative yogi green girl half of me)
has an ego.

an ego that tries to control not only everything i need to do/ buy/ see, but also trying to control the spiritual side of myself. (meditate more, more yoga, better yoga, JUICE MORE GODDAMMIT.)

the ego. i (we) will never get rid of her.

but

let it go. she doesn't talk as loud when the hands are off of the controls.

i promise.