getting older is a strange thing. the things i thought that mattered at fifteen are completely different than what i know matters now. and i know nothing compared to what i will know someday. boys, money, jobs, family. my thoughts on all of it have changed drastically in the last six and a half years. i can't imagine what life will be like in another six and half. i'm just hoping and praying that things will continue to go up. i know i will get down; down into the deep depths of financial stress, anxious thoughts, education overload, city life. but that's okay. because i have faith that no matter what, things will still go up.